The GCE A'levels Results.

ABE/CE

that's the result.

i don't know how i should feel.
it appeared okay to me when i first saw it. Econs was above my expectation, didn't expect an A. geog was within my expectation but was rather disappointed cause i expected an A too but well, B isn't bad too. C for gp was the same feeling i had towards geog. haven't got these results for any sch exam at all. for the 2 Es, maths and physics, was what i have always been struggling for the past 2 years. and i havent got anything better than a U. well, but Es on the cert didn't do it any good too, was glad that i finally pass these 2. but i was repeatedly asking myself, for all the work i've put in for maths(fair enough for physics), is this the best that i could have done? i was expecting at least a D. maybe a D is as bad as an E but for all the papers ive done, though didn't had much confidence during the papers, i should have at least a grade better than E...

didn't know how to feel. should i be happy that i've improved or be sad that i've such sucky results on an Alvl cert.

the day went by fine, till the end when coach was saying about clar getting straight B's, that it's okay if she has to spent more time to do the course she wants, it those who dunno what they want in life and can't do the things they want that they should be sad. and it hit me, it hit me real hard.

yes, cause i can just say bye to com studies at NTU. it's what i've always wanted, it's a dream. but results sucky like these, they even need a B for gp to even CONSIDER the candidate, and i'm getting a C, not mentioning getting an E for maths as one of the h2 subj. what can i do now..

it's like saying bye to your dream, it's like having no choice but to do smth else in life.
i've thought of majoring geog in nus and then do a minor in mass com somehow and maybe i'll still be able to get into some broadcasting company.or maybe do com studies overseas, but i don't have that kind of money. i need to find alternatives now. i need to pursue my dream, cause i don't wanna lead a life with regrets not even getting somewhere near to what i want.